Well, I'm at a point in my life where I have to make a big decision. Yes, that's right, I have just graduated high school :), more precisely at the beginning of December 2009. It's been more than a month since then now and I still don't know what I really wanna do this year(2010). The two main things that I am considering are doing Fashion course at TAFE or Architecture at either UWA/Curtin, Perth. All which I have applied for, and luckily have earned enough final score to get into <3
Have you ever filled in one of those cute little memory books in primary school, where you write in your friends' and vice versa? One of the common questions that I usually answered in those books is, "What do you want to be when you grow up?". And I remember putting in "Architect" in all those books :), although honestly I didn't put a lot of thought when I wrote it down. But don't you agree that it'll be hell cool if I really do become an architect like what I dreamt of when I was a lil kid?
On the other hand, when I turned 15, I fell in love with Fashion. I don't really follow trends but I enjoy choosing what to wear everyday as I stand in front of the mirror. It excites me. It evolves, like it's alive! Back when I was choosing subjects for Year 11, I chose Textile as one of the six allowed, alongside Art, English as an Additional Language, Basic Maths, Japanese as a Second Language and Indonesian Advance. Within the first two weeks, I was ready to drop the subject, not only because the teacher is the scariest, but all the other 8 students(excluding Cindy, my partner in crime) were all already experienced with using the sewing machines and have broad knowledge about the Fashion world(out of the 130 something students in the whole year, only 10 chose to do Textile, because in Year 11 people are only doing subjects that they are considering or interested in doing for Year 12 and also in the future finished high school). When I told the teacher that I wanted to drop the subject, she didn't give her signature, instead she told me to try harder and work extra hour to catch up. And I'm really glad that I did as she told me :) I even wore my self-made dress(school assignment) to the school graduation dinner and it was the best feeling everrrr, especially when parents who didn't know I made it gave compliments!
Everytime I see or talk about or smell(?) things to do with Architectue, I really wana do it. But I feel the same when the topic changes to Fashion. Arrrrrrgh this is killing me :O
I know what my Dad prefers me to do. Yep, Architecture of course. But I don't want to do it just because he wants me to. And I know he knows I never listen anyway ;). So if I am choosing Architecture, trust me it is only because of myself. And no, I'm not being selfish, but I only want to have what is mine wholly, and I'm talking about life here, what I want to do with the rest my life.
So please pray for me, I'm just hoping for a sign to appear, a clue, something.... just absolutely anything at all that can help me see clearer, choose braver :)
Cheers people!
